Never grow up.

Spending time with my baby cousins, I realised how much things have changed.

On my 6 year old cousin's Christmas wishlist, she asked for a laptop, mobile and iPod touch.

When I was little I asked for a teddy bear.

The way things are changing in such a short time,

The way the world is changing,

is so hard to understand.

My 7 month old cousin hasn't been threw anything yet.

She can smile and laugh because nothing has ever hurt her.

She's never been let down and no one has ever broken her heart.

She has no idea what dangers are in this world.

Or what will happen as she gets older.

Pure innocence.

My one wish would be that she stays like that.

Never grows up.

No one ever hurts her and she'd always be happy.

Forever.

We're all afraid.

We're all afraid of something.

Whether it's a spider in your bath tub or the fear of being rejected by the one you love,

Something.

I'm afraid of losing people.

Losing people who have become so close to me.

I rely on the people I love.

Without them I'd be nothing.

I'm afraid of tomorrow.

I'm afraid of uncertanty.

I'm afraid of you.

You should know...

Hi, my name is: Tori Renee.

Never in my life have I been: Completely secure.

High school: Failing.

When I'm nervous: I bite my right thumb.

My last song I listened to was: Tiny dancer.

My hair is: Utterly annoying and never right.

When I was 5, I was: A dreamer.

Last Christmas: Was less then a month ago.

I should be: Me.

By this time next year: Not much would've changed.

I have a hard time understanding: How incredibly selfish some people can be.

Take myself: Be yourself.

The thing I want to buy: A mouse.

If you visited the place I was born: You'd meet sick people and many screaming women.

I plan to visit: Everywhere my mind can possibly imagine.

If you spent the night at my house: You'd be sleeping on the couch.

I'd stop my wedding if: I was ever going to get married.

The world could do without: You.

The most recent thing I bought myself was: A tie dye summer blanket.

Most recent thing someone else bought me was: Orange tic tacs.

In the morning I: Go back to sleep.

Last night I was: Bored out of my fucking mind.

There's this guy I know who: Is everything I could ever wish for.

If I was an animal I'd be: Cute.

A better name for me would be: Superman.

Tomorrow I am: Movie watching.

Tonight I am: Dreaming.

My birthday is: September the fourteenth.

Remember the days.

Back when we had no troubles.

We were bestfriends and nothing would come between us.

No problems. No fights.

Remember the days.

We'd talk for hours on the phone.

There was no Facebook and we hadn't discovered the magic of mobile phones.

We'd actually go outside.

Go for bike rides and play at the park.

Remember the days.

Remember it all, before everything changed.

Before it all got complicated.

When we watched our first 'R' rated movie and felt like we were breaking the law.

Climbing trees knowing we'd fall and hurt ourselves.

And our biggest achievment was our sandcastle with a leaf on top.

Remember the days.

Because we're never getting them back.

I'm not like you.

I'm shy when I meet new people because I'm scared of being myself.

I'm insecure because I don't look like you.

You'll probably never know the real me.

I'm different to everyone else, and I'll rarely find someone with the same personality as me.

I'm not like you. Or her. And definatley not her.

I'm my own person.. Yeah apparently you can actually do that.

You don't have to be a sheep.

I used to hide who I was, but now I don't care.

If you don't like me for who I am then you can go be a sheep.

No one should ever feel like they can't be their self.

No one.

Please.

All we want is to be happy.

All we seem to do is expect everything.

Live without worry, regret, any of it.

It's never going to be perfect.

Think about it.

When you wish - What do you wish for?

Something possible?

Impossible?

Something that you know will never happen?

Or something that you know will?

Sometimes we'll get what we want, sometimes we won't.

If we do, we still aren't happy.

Because if we were, next time we made a wish, we wouldn't wish for anything.

We're all greedy bitches.

Ew.

I'm happy. I can honestly say that I am.

Even thought there are regrets, and things that have happened that made me unhappy.

Who cares?

Not much you can do about it and everything happens for a reason.

So please,

Get over yourself darling. Because you've got everything.

Be fucking happy.

Forever young.

I'll be sixteen this year.
It feels like time is going by too fast.

I'll have days where I want to grow up faster, I want to be 16, or 18 so I can do more things.

But what then?

What after 18?

I'll just get older and older.

I don't want to get older. Stop having fun.

Stop caring about the little things that make me smile.

Stop being a kid.

I don't want that to stop.

I don't want to get old and have wrinkles, relationship problems and finance issues.

I want to be young forever.