Day 23.

something you crave for alot.

i suppose i crave for attention,

i'm not the type that will make up shit for attention,

but i will worry, that in a second everyone i know and love will be gone.

it's a fear, i suppose.

i've lost too many people and i worry every day that i'll lose more.

i crave the feeling that i'm wanted,

and i'd say i crave smiles.

as strange as it sounds, as soon as i see someone smile,

whether it's because of me or because of something different;

it makes me happy.

in saying that, if someone is upset it ruins my mood.

totally just wrecks it.

i can't stand people being upset.

oh, just for a food craving, i'll say pickles.

i. love. pickles.

(:

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sooo.. today was actually rather lovely,

i sat with some lovely people,

on some lovely grass,

in the lovely sunshine.

after school i went shopping for adelaide,

which by the way is in 5 days!!

very excited (:

after some shopping i went to yoga with jillian,

i feel so calm and nice.

i feel like hugging everyone (:

it's been a good day, but well tomorrow is wednesday,

P.E + assembly = unhappy tori.

oh wells, i'll survive.

Day 22.

what makes you different from everyone else.

i'm just different.

i want red hair.

i have certain things i believe in and i stand up for them.

i'll stick up for my friends but not for myself.

i'll laugh my loudest when there is the softest silence.

i've been through alot, but that has made me the person i am today.

i've lost friends, close friends, best friends.

through fights, and death.

whenever it's 11.11 or i see a shooting star,

if i can't think of something i really want to wish for,

i'll wish for world peace.

i want a pet alpaca?

i want to be an amazing photographer.

i want to be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. (:

Day 20 & 21.

day 20 -

someone you see yourself marrying/being with, in the future.

- ah, dunno.

we'll see what happens.

day 21 -

a picture of something that makes you happy.

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i love this photo, it's just two people smiling and laughing together.

it's cute. (:

Day 19.

nicknames you have; why do you have them?

torz, torza, - some people seem to think it's shorter or simpler..

asian - when i'm angry i make a face that seems to portray an asian.

torso - the name jillian gave me one time..

oh god, i can't even think, there's so many i've been called..

well that'll do i suppose.

:)

Day 18.

plans/dreams/goals you have.

plans ~

- i plan to finish year 10 at albury high school, then attend albury tafe for a year or two.

- to do an extensive photography course and beauty course.

- take a trip to nimbin, paris, wolf creek and vietnam.

dreams ~

- i dream of having my own photography business, taking family photos and photos of kids but also creative photos and maybe even some modelling shoots if i get that far.

- if i got everything i dreamt for, i'd be taking photos of the stars and doing their hair and make-up. hmm we'll see (:

goals ~

- stress less!

- be more hippie orientated, help the planet, save the animals.. etc.

- to put a smile on at least three people's face every day.

- be successful.

- follow my dreams.

Day 17.

if you could be anyone for a day, who would it be and why?

-julia stone.

her and her brother, angus, have a successful music career.

she's a singer, & songwriter.

she plays beautiful acoustics.

she's so happy and smiley.

she takes the world as it comes.

she's at peace with everything and everyone.

she's a bit of a hippie but i admire her for that.

really, she's amazing.

she's gorgeous.

this lovely, horrible rollercoaster ride.

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it's all a rollercoaster ride.

this world, the people, the actions.

you, me.

couldn't it be simple? one thing, simple, please?

no chance.

it couldn't just be me, and some people who care about me,

smiling all the time. enjoying every second.

no chance.

we couldn't follow our dreams and be what we wanted?

no chance.

why was sadness ever invented? really?

no one wants it, everyone wants it gone, it's not welcome.

it seems these days, that every day is a struggle.

something happens. one thing, one person,

knows how to wreck a perfect day.

it's always gonna be hard, just keep that smile on your face and take on the world as if it were as simple as drinking water.

"don't be sad, you never know who was falling in love with your smile.."

Day 16.

another picture of yourself.

- i don't even look like this anymore.

i have a fringe, and i just look different. but i hate every photo of me, so this will do.

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so, just got home from yoga with jillian,

the hot guy wasn't there, i think she was genuinely disappointed.

we were so tired after today, walking everywhere, swimming, walking some more,

shopping, waaaaaaaaaaaaaalking, then yoga.

i could seriously pass out right now. but it was a great day.

:)

Day 15.

put your ipod on shuffle, write down the first 10 songs that play.

1) let this go - paramore.

2) jesse's girl - rick springfield.

3) my life would suck without you radio mix - former fat boys/kelly clarkson.

4) hold on with my open hands - william fitzsimmons.

5) heartless - kanye west.

6) you've changed - sia.

7) i'm yours - jason mraz.

8) can't stand it - never shout never.

9) guardian angel - the red jumpsuit apparatus.

10) that girl - plain white t's.

Day 14.

a picture of you and your family.

with the brother; avery.

with the mother; sharelle.

they're my everythings. <3.

you're that bored, and you wonder if ants ever get depression..

have you ever looked at the little things and wondered?

really wondered.

wondered how candles melt and soft drink bubbles.

obviously there is a scientific explanation to it all, but no one notices these things.

ever wondered how many trees were cut down for all your photos, posters and books in your room?

how much money all your possessions would make if you sold each and every one?

ever just got that bored, that you notice every little detail?

ever wondered if a little ant on the sidewalk has relationship issues?

whether they have problems, not enough food.. too many children, etc.

i feel bad every time i squish an ant now.

as i've become so bored, i'd imagined the life of an ant,

all those deaths..

their poor families.

i think i care too much about ants.

i think i care to much about all these little things.

Day 13.

a letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

okay, well this is to someone who didn't hurt me recently.

but has hurt me.

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Dear ________,

I'll never forgive you, and I honestly never ever want to see you again.

I say this with no doubt; "I regret ever meeting you.."

If i could go back to the day I met you,

I would walk away.

So much would be different.

I'd be different.

You changed me, and not for the better.

I hate you for that.

I hate the way you made me feel,

I hate the things you did.

Those choices you made.

You'll never know how much of an impact you made on my life.

You'll never realize the damage you caused.

You'll never know.

To acknowledge your existence hurts me.

I hope you change one day, for the better.

I hope that one day the realization of your decisions haunts you.

Good-bye.

Sincerely, Tori.

"I would never wish bad things, but I don't wish you well.."

- Kelly Clarkson.

Day 12.

how you found out about blogging and why you made a blog.

well i used to have a tumblr.com account, but it was more re-blogging.
re-blogging others' photos and quotes that i liked.
it wasn't original.
it wasn't mine.

i found out about blog spot through nikitta, (http://nikitta-jayne.blogspot.com/)
and then she just explained to me how to make one,
and how it works.

i like blogging because i can write whats on my mind.
and well, it just gives me something to do.

i made one because it seemed interesting, and i enjoy writing.

Day 11.

another photo of you and your friends.



haha good memories behind this photo.
"quick set the camera on timer"
"i don't think the timer is on"
- braeden runs up to turn it on -
"no it's on, it's on! get back here! hurry"
- braeden faceplants -

:)

put pen to paper.

let's try something.

put pen to paper,
write down all your troubles.
everything you hate.
everything upsetting.
all the people who annoy the complete fuck out of you.
write it all down.
- chuck it in a fire and watch it burn.



put pen to paper,
write down all your smiles.
everything you love.
everything that makes you happy.
all the people who make every day worth it.
write it all down.
- pin it somewhere you can see it.



put pen to paper,
write down your goals for 2011.
everything you want to achieve.
everything that you need.
make it happen.
write it all down.
- pin it somewhere you can see it.


forget the bad things. remember the good things. create memories.

you can do this.

Day 10.

songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad.





when i'm happy i generally play music, rather then listen to it.
if i'm listening to some, it'll be music i want to learn myself.
so mostly indie rock music,
stuff like angus and julia stone, nada surf, william fitzsimmons, taylor swift.

when i'm sad, it's usually soft music, love songs.
laura marling, tyler hilton, kelly clarkson.

when i'm bored, it's a bunch of whatever my itunes throws at me.
a bit of everything. i just put itunes on shuffle.

when i'm hyped, it's the good stuff, the bands.
paramore, muse, ok go, nirvana, the offspring, plain white t's.
sometimes evolves into dancing too.

when i'm mad, i listen to songs that make me think,
meaningful ones.
and a bit of rock too. paramore mostly.

my first camera.

for my 6th birthday, i opened my present from my mother,
to find this brick-looking object that took pictures.
my first camera.
it had a roll of film and a lanyard sort of string to carry it around my neck.
i put love heart stickers on it and took it everywhere.

that was when i fell in love with taking photos.
back then, of course the photos were mostly of grass and flowers.
i took a lot of photos of my pet bunny rabbits, most of them were blurry and terrible.
but i loved it.

for my 10th birthday, my mother bought me my first basic digital camera.
now the photos could go on the computer.
i was amazed.

i took it to Queensland and took some photos of dolphins.

years passed and as i started high school, i couldn't stop.
i took two photography classes in school and still love it.

i have 3 cameras now that i use.
and plan to buy a 4th shortly.

i'm not sure what it is i love about photography.
maybe it's that a photo can capture a moment.
sometimes it can capture the simple things that no one ever notices.

it makes things so beautiful.
unimaginable.

the colors, the smiles, the memories.
all of it.
it's just amazing.

i hope to go on to take wonderful photos of this world,
as i get older and more experienced,
but i'll never forget my first camera.

the day i stop taking photos, will be the day i die.

Day 09.

something i'm proud of in the past few days.




i've started to let go.
i'm beginning to stop caring about you, you and you because you're not worth it.

but i'm also starting to trust and care about you and you because you ARE worth it.
i've started to believe again.
to trust again.

i know that i'll never be the same.
after having my trust broken in the past,
but i'm getting there.

i'm starting to trust someone in particular.
i think it's the right choice.

after all, he makes me smile.
he most likely won't read this,
but if he does..
he should know that he's already making an impact on my life.

i'm proud that i'm trusting people again,
i'm proud that i'm changing.

"This Is For You, You're The Reason I Wrote This
You're The Reason I Stand In The Rain And Get My Clothes Wet
Oh It's Just Another Taste From The Bottle
Oh It's Bliss N Eso's Page From The Novel"

sometimes things fall apart so others can fall into place.

sometimes, the decisions we made seem like they were for the worst,
when actually they are for the better.
you decide something, it's for the best.
always.

whether it seems like it or not.
new things fall into place when others fall apart.

to be honest, everything is so confusing at the moment,
it's like i'm always falling further and further,
no matter how hard i try.

but then something comes along that makes everything seem worth it.
something that makes me smile.

even if only for a moment.
i find it hard to smile these days,
and i really want to.

when everything goes bad, i think of that one good moment.
where i can smile knowing it's not fake or forced.

thank-you for that.

Day 08.

short term goals for this month and why.




- to smile more.
- to achieve happiness.
- to care less.
- to worry less.
- to get a job.
- to wave and smile at strangers.
- to enjoy adelaide.
- to make a new friend or two.
- to compliment more people.
- to give to the less fortunate.
- to donate money to a charity.
- to help others.
- to finish this 30 day challenge.

xoxo.

Day 07.

a picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you.



well, not this guy in particular exactly.
but just that i've noticed that people seem to manage with very little,
or nothing.

they seem to get by everyday anyway,
they may not have possessions or even friends..
but they still live.

and here i am upset over things, that they've probably been through a million times.
makes you re-think.

it's people like this, that make an impact on my life.
they make me thank-full.
things may not be perfect, they most likely won't ever be.

but i have all i need.

Day 06.

favourite superhero and why.

batman.



well because batman has always been my favourite superhero,
ever since i was little.
when my brother got a batman suit, i stole it and never gave it back.
i had batman figurine shelf and i loved the batman and robin cartoons.

temporarily, my facination with batman was replaced with buzz lightyear..
but i soon learned batman was best.

he's just cool, i mean he's half bat?
(:

ily batman.
xx.

Day 05.

a picture of somewhere i've been.



sorrento.
while everyone else was at outward bound, i went to sorrento.
it was the most peaceful place i've ever been to.
and i loved it.

when i'm older, i'll definitely be taking my friends there,
for a fun road trip.

the best memories.

Day 04.

a habit you wish you didnt have.

well, to be honest there are a few i wish i didn't have.

- having a messy room,
- cutting my hair almost every second day,
- falling in love,
- making mistakes,
- texting too much,
- biting my nails.

among others of course.
thats all i can think of for now, the main things.

Day 03.

a picture of you and your friends.

Day 02.

the meaning behind your blog name.

- well, when i made my blog i was trying to think of something simple, but interesting,
something that suited me and my personality, and how i was feeling at the time.
"the simple things" seemed suitable.

i need to focus on the simple things, and not all the bad things that keep getting to me, i need to write about the simple things.

because the simple things are the ones that matter.

Day 01.

a recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself.



1 - i'm fifteen,
2 - i love to dance,
3 - i was in the circus for five years,
4 - favourite colour is blue,
5 - i'm far from perfect,
6 - i've lived in wodonga all my life,
7 - i still make daisy chains,
8 - i love my ukulele,
9 - i'm single,
10 - i hate school,
11 - i want red hair,
12 - can't wait til next year,
13 - i have a bird, who talks,
14 - i want a fish named cocaine,
15 - music is everything.

30 day challenge.

so for 30 days i'm going to be doing this challenge..
it seems interesting and it will give me something to do.
enjoy dudes.
peace. xo.

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about blogging and why you made a blog.
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

make it count.

whoa big week, a lot has gone on.
it's got me thinking, life is short.
people don't stay together forever.
friends leave, new people come into your life.
things happen. shit happens.

suppose it's just part of life.
it's been one of those weeks where i've just wanted to say;
"fuck this, i'm out."

truth is, i don't think anyone really knows what they're doing.
if someone knew the secret to getting through life without scars,
they would've wrote some amazing book and got famous by now.

life; no one gets out alive anyway.

the wrong decisions will lead you to something even better.
the regrets are there because you learnt from them.

you'll learn who your true friends are.
the ones who have always been there and the ones who never will.

breathe in the sunshine and have fun. nothing lasts forever.
live your life like you'll die tomorrow.
live like today is your last.

make it count.

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