summer. summer. summer.

UrbanDictionary.Com tells me -

Summer; The moment that every child, adolescent, teenager, and college student awaits. It's supposed to be a time of rest, relaxation, vacation, and absolute fun.

Regardless, it ends up being incredibly boring 90% percent of the time unless you enjoy sitting on your ass and playing Xbox 360 all week long. Which I don't.
Sophomore: Gee, I can't wait 'til summer break starts. All this school work is just ridiculous!
6th grader: Shut the fuck up shitwipe.

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THIS SUMMER WILL BE AMAZING !



Get out your water pistols kiddies, summer is coming (:
Not long now till we can enjoy the perpetual perfectness of the sun,

- Going to the river and swinging off those ropes we had hand tied onto a most likely unstable branch that could snap dangerously at any moment.

- Watching the boys jump off the bridge, just because they think they're awesome, and sitting there anxiously, hoping that they do not hit some type of unknown object and die.

- Swimming, of course.
- Pool parties.
- Watermelon.

- Chasing the ice-cream van around town until we finally catch it, only to pay approximately $10 for an ice-cream that will taste pretty much the same as a 50cent cone from McDonald's.

- Climbing trees.
- Picnics.
- Camping.
- Sleeping in.
- Making shapes out of the clouds.

- The company of those amazing friends who will probably spontaneously think of something highly dangerous but rather fun to do.

- Just laying on the trampoline in the sun, listening to some lovely music.

- PHOTOGRAPHY!
- Slushies.

- The thought of getting a sexy tan but it actually turns into bright red sun burn that peels and gives you a rather attractive snake skin look.

- Guys at the pool with no tops, unless of course they are those guys who are either;
a) really old and wrinkly,
b) rather over weight and disgusting,
or c) really hairy and just ape looking.

- The freedom of knowing that you can wake up and everyday is something new, not 9-3 education boredom.

- Adventure.

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"If i had a day that i could give you
i'd give to you a day just like today
if i had a song that i could sing for you
i'd sing a song to make you feel this way
If i had a tale that i could tell you
i'd tell a tale sure to make you smile
if i had a wish that i could wish for you
i'd make a wish for sunshine all the while
Sunshine, on my shoulders - makes me happy
sunshine, in my eyes - can make me cry
sunshine, on the water - looks so lovely
sunshine, almost always - makes me high
sunshine almost all the times makes me high
sunshine, almost always makes me high..."

"Sunshine on my shoulders"
John Denver

34 days until the first day of Summer.
Not that anyone is counting.

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i've learned to just smile.

i realized something important today,
that i have so many reasons to smile,
for practically all of today.. i was laughing and smiling.
and i loved it.





i love how my friends can put a smile on my face.
whether it was jillian's jokes, zoe ghosting the teacher,
ben and i drawing silly things in food tech,
getting a present off jake from vietnam,
or even jake.d trying to carry me around everywhere >.>

i have so many people who make me smile.
so i've decided to be happy.

the people who are bitchy and rude can go get effed,
i'm going to try not to let them get to me,
they arent worth my time.






and guess what? people may look at our big group of friends,
and think how weird or silly we are,
but we have fun, we are ourselves,
we arent fake.
yeah we may throw shoes in trees and have water fights,
but it's all part of being bestfriends.

everything reminds me of you.

WHY IS IT THAT EVERYTHING HAS TO REMIND ME OF YOU.
this picture was on some photography site i was going through,
it's so much like your room. well.. how it used to be.

it's the lanterns mostly, and the detail on the ceiling.

i'd be lying if i said i've gone a day without thinking about you..

i wonder what it would be like if you were still here,
if we would still be bestfriends, or if we would've had one of those fights,
that end friendships and tear people apart.

would we be as close?
would we still care about each other?
would it be the same?

i just need to stop.
stop thinking.

why is everything so difficult?

why.

i fucking miss you;

closure.

i have been going about this the wrong way,
i have been trying to forget you,
to forget what happened, to forget every memory of you i have..

when instead i should be remembering you for the amazing person you were,
i should be valuing the friendship we had and the good times we shared,
i should remember your smile and the silly things you said..

because if i remember the good things,
then when i hear your name i don't feel sad,
i just smile at those good memories..

and i have closure, knowing that one day,
near or far,
i will see your smiling face again,
those gorgeous eyes.

and i have closure, knowing you..
being a part of your life, even if it was a short one.

fact is i love you.
i miss you.
i'll see you again.

<3

imagine a dream.

.. a dream can be what we want it to be,
a thousand memories in one lovely moment,
a thousand thoughts wrapped into something amazing,
it can be whatever our imagination comprehends,
it can be PERFECT.

reality is for those who lack imagination..

dreams seem to make us fall in love with the idea of something perfect,
or an idea that may never happen.

but for those few moments every night when we sleep,
a dream can make us feel like the perfect world is out there somewhere,
all we need to do is make it happen.

the best.

pretty sure one of the best things, is seeing your friends happy.

even if your feeling the worst, seeing them smile..

that's the best.

in saying that, when your friends are hurt or upset.

your heart breaks.

that's the worst.

we try to protect our friends from mistakes and regrets,

choices they have made and decisions they may choose in the future,

but in the end it's their life,

and all we can really do is sit back and let them live.

all we can do is be there for them when the tears fall,

and laugh and smile with them when they are happy.

right now, seeing you smile.. that's the best.

<3

the world's difficulties.

do you remember when we were little,

and we had those terrible night mares..

that we would wake up screaming and crying to?

it's so funny how we can wake up now,

with night mares and they seem just as painful,

although now they are no longer about stolen crayons,

or kids complaining of our 'cooties' at kinder.

no, now they are real,

about sadness, love, and the way in which the read world,

never goes how we plan.

the way in which our decisions are sometimes wrong,

and we have regrets or mistakes that we have made along the way..

about how someone we have given everything,

turns around and breaks our heart.

about friends, family, events that have changed us.

death, tragedy, circumstances so bad you could never imagine..

a stolen crayon doesn't seem so bad now, does it?